Give and Take

Feeling a bit anxious lately... I think I am over-exerting myself? I don't know... between the workload and the exercise (the little that I do... exercise keeps me sane... I need to start running again) and the social functions, there is just so little time for me to relax. The occasional dates with the spa for massages help, but I need to unwind a bit...

Drinking does not relax me, it stresses me out even more! I have learned not to be paranoid and not to care about what people who don't know me think (note: I care about the people who do know me and what they think!), but physically, and mentally, it drains me. I honestly can't wait for the social functions to STOP COMING. November, December and January weekends already booked. Geez!

There is that option of drinking less... When shall I master thee?? That should be TOP PRIORITY in 2011. That and working even harder on the things that make me happy and whole (Friendships, Work and Exercise)...

For work, I need to hire that assistant... D-E-L-E-G-A-T-E...

Looking forward to our boating trip this week... I'm outta here! Out of Manila. Maybe that's what I need. Sometimes it gets too toxic...

I blame no one but myself...!

I need to start taking a bit for myself... I keep giving. But you gotta do what you gotta do, and at the end, we cannot fight our personal nature. My nature is to put effort... to give. I'm just worried that one day I'll be burnt out. That's why it's important to take, too.

Balance between giving and taking... My life's personal struggle.